Learning From Yesterday.

So This. This Is The Beginning.

Of something brand new. And honestly, it terrifies me. But you know what? I’ve come to terms with it. I’ve let myself be stopped by so many obstacles, because I was so unsure of myself, not confident about what I wanted to do with my life, and where I wanted to go.

…The truth is, I lied to myself, and to everyone else who didn’t know me as well as they thought they did. I led everyone to believe I was on the fast track to my future, that I had everything in order, in line, perfectly. But it was just one big, huge even, facade. I had fooled myself. And I didn’t even realize what I had gotten myself into until I finally dug myself a hole so deep, I could barely see the light. And only now am I beginning to climb out. So here’s the truth:

I have only the faintest idea of what I want to do in life. Becoming a doctor is something I dream about, but my passion for it is waning, and it’s evident in the little amount of effort I’ve dedicated on my path to get there. So here I am, trying to find myself a brand new path. But I have to be sure it’s a path I’m willing to stick to, and not allow myself to stray from.

I want to be a doctor, but I’m so scared I’m not going to make it.